iscreamdynamite 2.0

Irrelevancy is my thing

During all those years I have known you, I have loved you and I have hated you.

Many times I didn’t even like you for a bit. Many times I fought for you to be more like me, while all I needed to do was be more like you. We are both the teacher and student, the hater and the lover, the fire and the water.

Our lives are locked particles in this vast universe. For now we push and pull while heading in the same direction, until for whatever reason the collision is undone.

I had a terrible day; we say it all the time. A fight with the boss, the stomach flu, traffic. That’s what we describe as terrible, when nothing terrible is happening. These are the things we beg for; a root canal, an IRS audit, coffee spilled on our clothes. When the really terrible things happen, we start begging a God we don’t believe in to bring back the little horrors and take away this. It seems quaint now, doesn’t it. The flood in the kitchen, the poison oak, the fight that leaves you shaking with rage. Would it have helped, if we could see what else was coming? Would we have known that those were the best moments of our lives?

—Meredith Grey (Ellen Pompeo)

(Source: manooriified)

Our day of national mourning

In remembrance of the passengers of flight MH017. 

Personally, I don’t know anyone who was on the flight, but this is not about me, nor about any individual. This is about nearly 300 human beings who were on their way to their holiday destination, their families, their homes, their workarrangements. 

It is also not about the Netherlands, or the Dutch nationality. This is about the world, and the political state it is in. It is yet another tragic event claiming innocent lives and could have been avoided entirely.

Today is not the day for my opinion, but about respect and in some ways about acceptance. We must accept that this event is irreversible. We must accept that nowadays nobody is safe, whichever country you might live in. We must accept that we play the bigger role in this, and revenge might not be in place. But we may not accept the state the world is in today. 



if you’re having a bad day here is a baby polar bear being tickled


that worked even faster than I thought

So called ‘late-bloomers’ get a bad rap. Sometimes the people with the greatest potential often take the longest to find their path because their sensitivity is a double edged sword- it lives at the heart of their brilliance, but it also makes them more susceptible to life’s pains. Good thing we aren’t being penalized for handing in our purpose late. The soul doesn’t know a thing about deadlines.

—Jeff Brown (via venuschild)

Like most sensitive souls, you already know you’re sensitive.
You soak up others’ moods and desires like a sponge. You absorb sensation the way a paintbrush grasps each color it touches on a palette. The ethereal beauty of a dandelion, the shift of a season, the climax of a song, or a certain stirring scent can evoke such wonder it’ll behave as your very breath itself- moving through cells as fuel does to fire and wind does to waves.

—Victoria Erickson (via venuschild)

Picked up my earplugs today!

I’m so happy sounds won’t actually hurt anymore.
These plugs are custom made and took about 2 weeks to be ready. The filters are especially for music and conversations. I’ve got two sets of filters, one for daily life, 9DB, and 25DB filters for special occasions such as festivals, concerts, clubbing, and loud environments in general.

I got them primarily to ease my Hyperacusis, and to asure that some sounds such as birds don’t physically hurt, while still being able to follow conversations. I’m also a music enthusiast and the common earplugs are hell. 

They’re made of clear silicon, so it isn’t an eye catcher. However, when I ordered them I thought the string could be disconnected from the plugs but it is glued into them. Even though they are super expensive and I can’t lose them with the string attached, the string itself causes some noise as my hair brushes past it.

All in all, I’m so happy I’ve got them now and I can go about daily life without avoiding certain situations or sounds.